FREEDOM

This is how I feel after completing all my finals.

What am I free from? A constant battle with myself to find motivation and determination to finish this semester!

     I am happy with myself. I got an 88% on my Statistics final. I didn't do much studying, and that is not bragging, thats bewilderment. I am the type of person that studies, and studies, and studies. So either A: I am a uber nerd because I like statistics, understand it, and retain it, B: someone upstairs was working some magic because he knows I am struggling. C: Both A and B. D: I cheated.

I didn't cheat.

Maybe
                                                    of course I don't cheat. I have too guilty of a concious.

     So what now? What to do with my free time? Thats right. I don't have much anymore! I will be working 5/6 days a week between two jobs. I am going to be doing some hard core book-keeping training for Bare Bones and Tifie Ranch. I am really excited to have a little change with work. I still love doing hair and am hoping I stay busy at the salon. I have a sweet story I want to share.

     Elaine Moody is one of my regulars. She is there every friday to get her hair done. She was very concerned about me when she found out I was sick. She was very sweet to me the next time I saw her, giving me a hug, and comforting words.
     Last week she was checking up on me. I told her I was just trying to manage day to day. It somehow came up that I had little appetite and motivation to make meals. She said  "what is your favorite place to eat? You ought to go out and a least get something you like." I told her we were trying not to spend money on dining out, or I probably would! I didn't mean to say it to make her feel bad, or woe is me I'm so poor.
     At the end of her appointment she pulled a $20 out of her wallet and said "go out somewhere with your husband and get yourself some food you enjoy". Oh Elaine!!! I seriously love my old ladies. They look after you. Its like having multiple grandmas.

I got to spend time with Gray and Lear (little brother in laws) over the weekend. I took them up to my parents house. I hope they had fun, and weren't too bored. We wanted to do a lot more things with them, but crummy weather got in the way. I liked having them get to know my family a little better. Maybe the whole In-Law family can come up next time!

 Ta for now.

A bit of fun

What a week! It is amazing how fast time goes when you are not laying in a hospital bed, or any bed for that matter.

I got myself to go to school. My teachers have been more than understanding, and willing to work with me. It's been hard to find motivation, however, as I feel like I've lost all my steam. Then I think about dragging it out, and that sounds terrible! I have two test to make up, 8-9 assignments, and then finals. So to not stress out I am trying to handle my life DAY to DAY.

I met with a tutor for my Stat 121 class, and he was encouraging. About a half hour into reviewing exam material he says to me "I am surprised how much you know! Most people I help at this point are so lost." So tomorrow I plan to take the exam!

I went back to work this week as well. Thursday-Sat. My body aches. But it was good to see my clients. I was swamped, and that felt good. I only almost cried twice. When two of my older ladies gave condolences. They are so sweet.

For fun this weekend, I got to go on a couple dates with Perry.



He took me to see Hunger Games. I was pleased with the movie. Lots of cool cinematography! But mostly it was great to cuddle on the comfy iMax seats :) Go memory foam.



I took Vinny on a couple long walks. It was nice to get a little exercise, especially out in the sun. Since losing at least 20 pounds of water, I don't recognize my little legs. I think I experienced some atrophy too.
I have taken some before pictures, pre-running.



No muscle :s


At least the swelling is almost gone! Still a little tenderness around the ankles and top of foot.

And my most FAVORITE thing I did this week. Woke up the Scooter!!



We went on a ride with the club I am part of. Brigham Bees Scooter Club.


Perry wearing hipster glasses



At the top of Squaw Peak. Thank you Perry for joining me on the ride :)

Wish me luck to survive this next week. School school school and




SCHOOL!!

Thank you post

To my Momma - I love you for taking care of me over the past week. It really means a lot to still be able to rely on you, even though I'm grown up and out of the house.  I don't know what I can do to repay you, other than try and be like you! Be the best person I can be. I hope I can be as good as a mother as you are.

To my Mom in Law - Thank you for sitting in the hospital with me so much. It was very comforting to have someone there with me right after it all happened. You raised an amazing son and I'm glad to be part of the family. Thanks for being a strength for me, I love you. 


To my Pappa - Thanks for coming and being a silent support. Your blessing gave me a lot of peace. Thanks for letting me take over yours and mom's bed for a few days :) I love you

To my Pappa in Law - Thank you for your advice and words of wisdom. I'm thankful that Perry has someone like you to talk to. Thank you for your love and support, I love you. 


Tara - Thanks for being there for me before, during, and after this mess. You sacrifice a lot of your time to your profession. It means a lot to me to have someone I can talk to. Thanks for checking up on me so much, I need it. Love you!

To my siblings - Thanks for your concern and checking up on me. I know not all of you could visit, but I appreciate your love through calling, texting, etc. Family means a lot to me and I'm glad I have you.

Ashliegh Baldwin - Thanks for talking to me and visiting while I was sick. I am glad I can confide in you with confidence, well I hope you don't think I'm crazy anyway :) And I can't wait to start running with you!

Braden and Kristen - Thank you for rescuing my Vinny in a time of need :) 

Colby - Thank you for being Perry's friend and keeping him out of trouble

Julia - thanks for being my friend, can't wait to plan some trips this summer

To all those other family and friends that sent flowers, cards, and kind words: Thank you! Thats all I can really say, I appreciate your love, prayer and thoughts.

To my Father in heaven: Thank you for giving me strength, even when I don't think I have any. I love you and will continue to trust in you. 

Last but not least :)
My Perry: You are my best friend! You are going to have to deal with my mood for the next little while. Thank you for being my better half. I couldn't live without you! I love you very much. We have already gone through so much in our first 2 years of marriage. I know we can get through anything. We are such a good pair.

Stuff I did last week

To help my sanity I tried to do things to help me feel, normal. I went to "zoro the musical" with my parents, brother and his date.



I collected eggs from the chickens.



I finally got to see Vinny early Sunday morning. Perry drove up to my parents after he played a show. He got sleepy on the way, took a little nap, and didn't get to my parents until almost 4 am. He is a sweet husband though, I appreciated being able to finally cuddle next to him. It had been over a week since we had!

Since Vinny stayed at my in-laws, who have two other dogs, for the past week. He got pretty stanky. This is what he looks like wet, pretty disgusting.



My brother made a 50 caliber black powder rifle. Perry and I had the privilege to shoot it.



Aiming



On try number two I got the target!



Powder-wedge-bullet



I love him



Getting instructions



More instructions. I think the bullet accidentally fell out before he shot this.


Love his face on this one



Don't mess with me, perry will shoot you



I finally got to wear my wedding ring!

Health wise I am still on the mend. We visited the doctor yesterday and my test came back negative for most things. This means that they probably won't find the Why of what caused my preeclampsia, but I think that is a good thing. It means I don't have any pre existing health problems.